Who Am I ? akiss2desire is a Bible Belt Blogging Bi Big Beautiful Babe who has been sharing her writing, mostly 1st person lesbian erotica, short stories, poetry, and lesbian pop culture realizations from both the experience and fantasy perspectives to an ever growing audience. I recently passed a million page views ! Thanks for the nominations for the Lezzie awards honoring best lesbian erotica on the web.

Those who have come here regularly know that I have taken a bit of a hiatus from posting and publishing, but my past work is still here and if you are new here there is much to be consumed. I am working on several stories right now and writing from the same mix of experience and fantasy that readers have told me they loved.

Those stories will be the foundation of my upcoming compilation book. Today, you get to read for free. Welcome, and I hope you stay awhile.

Sunday

Thoughts of Pillow Princesses Past and Present

For she who wants to be my latest pillow princess ...inspiration for remembering and indulging in what I most love to do
By akiss2desire 2013
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I have described myself to others as a "giver in search of an appreciater."   If you want to be blunt about it ...and be less cryptic ..I am someone who loves to suck a woman in all sensual details...perhaps for hours ....while her responses fill my affection cup by  savoring my complete devotion to her longing.   A pillow princess to lay there for me and with me is a princess presented as the most precious gem. 

It's kind of the way I started in my first lesbian experience and so many of them since when it just keeps going on and on and you look at the clock and can't believe how long you've been making love. 

In my experiences I love making out and feeling skin against warm skin, where those first touches, kisses and strokes are tender and trust building, and eye contact reveals mutual hunger and burgeoning need.  I cannot get enough of feeling and hearing a woman respond to what I am doing.  I love deep tongue kissing and the feel of my lovers bosom first against my body, then against my hands ...soft over clothes and smooth skin to skin, and eventually an erect nipple between my lips and accepting my tongue licking and my mouth sucking while my lover strokes my hair or cradles my head or stretches her arms around me to pull me close while I flick my tongue and lift and squeeze with my hands a beautiful pair of breasts.  I see my pillow princess picture and long to cuddle with her special tattoo.  I dream of riding upwards to hang my breasts above your mouth and see your beautiful eyes close and your red lipstick engulf my nipple because I love SO much to feel my own nipple sucked with sanctity, sincerity, and  affection while my vagina secretes it's first declaration of my own desire.

I would caress closely and swallow my princess boobs forever if it weren't for that I can feel the passion rising and need to reach down and feel just how wet a woman gets for me.  Nothing ...NOTHING is more exciting to me than to feel the physical proof of a woman's excitement for me down there...it's 100 times more strong than the times when a stiff cock greets my palm. When she is slippery and warm to accept my fingers and spreads her legs apart to invite me it affects me in so many ways ....tells me my lover feels that way for ME and what I've done and knowing where I am going.   Fingering and tracing around the lips and inside with one or two digits as she clutches and tenses while I graze and tease the clit..it elevates my own excitement as much as her squirming under my touch expresses her pleasure.   While I encircle the button and probe to gauge what feels best for her ...a soft touch or something harder and perhaps faster, I almost never want to finish her first orgasm this way.  I love the closeness of making out upright and fingering my girl ..perhaps breast to breast and mouth and tongues tangling together while fingering ...gawd thats wonderful to feel so close above the waist while the orgasms are bubbling below ...but its just my natural way...my hunger ..my immense desire to look into her eyes and relish in her beauty, taking a deep breath and thanking my stars for the good fortune of being with such a beautiful creature who for some reason wants me this way, as I begin to kiss my way down. 

So many ways to begin ...but for me it begins with admiration...the sight of her most beautiful and glistening center of our mutual gratification.  Every sense involved as I lower my head slowly, feel the first electric touch my lips to her skin, and enter inside with my tongue, soon sweeping over the lips with my lips, tonguing labia and clitoris first slowly, and soon more intensely, to bring about the shudders and quivers and moans and quakes of release, joy, and ultimate togetherness.   My tongue going to its work, flicking and rounding, flattening full tongue licks and lip surrounding clit gentle sucking, tickle tracing and tingle penetrations, location jumps from the top to the bottom, or lingering moments in a favorite place as time freezes for both of us.  Lip sucking and gentle teeth grazing, rapid runs  and side to side wiggles ...fingers involved and not ...juices leaking on me and the sheets ...butt squeezing and thigh massaging...anus stroking and encircling and tongue elongating to plunge as deeply as it can to twirl her walls and deepen our intimacy beyond expectations.

I am in it, around it, on top and underneath my lovers vagina with my mouth and tongue, introducing my fingers, thumb, and palm ...my grip and massage ...my control and release of control ...my complete and total devotion to oral pleasure in everything I've learned in experience with others, and everything I am learning moment to moment of her special needs.  Each shake of her hips, moan or groan or sigh ...each quickened breath...encourages me to give more to receive more of that which fills my lesbian soul.   Using warmth of tongue, cheek and lips, and breath to add sensations, tempo and texture against her velvet pink saturation ...applying firm pressure or backing off to a feathery touch ..twisting my head this way to lick this way or tonguing up and down or around for an all new sensitivity, or knowing she feels the vibration from my own moan against her pussy.  New fiery tingles with each specific and seemingly uniquely designed but spontaneous touch.  Generating tingles and throbs and preparing for the convulsions of release and riding her explosion ...her first ...her next...slowing down so she can catch her breath and let the tingles subside so we can go again and again til when she begs me to stop, I might for a moment ...but I can never get enough of the addiction to each individual, completely unique orgasm that I create imagining I am writing her pleasure as a conductor writes a symphony.

As I imagine, fantasize and relive, on her back and propped on the pillow isn't all there is of course.  Climb up on all fours to allow me to enter from behind for different sensations....or dangle her legs off the bed while I kneel on the floor.  

For me....oh I am wet and swollen and wanting and for a pillow princess to shower me with appreciation and a kind of close devotion that is on a higher peak and on the precipice of my own building an imminently volcanic explosion...it can come from her fingers or her mouth ..but I have to really know she wants me that way...she wants to eat me and just can't live without tasting me the way I have devoured her with all of her juices still slightly sticky on my cheeks and neck and more.  If my pillow princess just wants to reciprocate because thats the right thing to do but doesn't yet feel she wants to go there ..well...that can be for another time ....It's better for me to trib my way over the top, for I thoroughly enjoy being right up against her side and slightly on top with my tits flopping upon hers as that flesh itself makes its own luxurious love and squished together symbolizes how our souls have become in these minutes of erotic collaboration, and if she will hold me, I can take control of my own, writhing against her thigh with my drenched lips and swollen clit ...just if she pushes that thigh into me I push my spirit against her ...fucking her with my own thigh while  fucking myself against her. so she can feel when my eruption against her and into her sweetly soaks the sheets beneath her thigh while my turbulent thrusts slowly dissolve  into sublime collapse of sweet but temporary exhaustion.  Or if my lover wants to taste me ...perhaps I can let her lay and climb aboard to lower my pussy to her lips to ride her and guide her beneath me.   When all is done for me and for us, eyes meet for confirmation ...what reverence might I see.

hey...here is an honest question ...if the term for a woman who wants to be loved on like this is a pillow princess ...what is the term for me ..someone who wants that from the other side?

Our Lesbian Letters Exchanged

Lesbian Dating Site Correspondence

How would YOU respond ? I overshare ?   What should I say or not say ?   Do you, my thousands (blush) of blog readers like when I post something this personal ?

This is a back and forth  slightly edited for anonymity.  Her note to me is heavily edited, only to give you the gist of hery response to my personal ad I put up some time ago. The beautiful and local woman who responded ...about 10 years older than me with incredible beauty told me we had much in common and she thought that I had beautiful breasts.  Trust me when i tell you that hers are far superior based on her picture.  My picture on the ad is a cropped bust shot with just my boobs being lifted up by my nipple covering palms with locks of my formerly blonde hair showing.  Here is her note any my erotic response ...you might sense my desperation to sleep with her.   She is gorgeous. 

 (ps ..I am close as I write this to 1000 twitter followers @akiss2desire .... please join me there for sexy tweets, kiss pics, and updates to when I publish on this or one of my other blogs)

Not Her but This is Close ..she has a tattoo on her right breast
Her note:
I was intrigued by your profile because you said everything I wanted. From what I could see you have a gorgeous face, and nice ummmm EYES. LOL.


I am 5ft 6 150. 38D and lots of freckles. The friend I mentioned on profile is my xhusband.   We have, considered the swing thing but Im just not sure about it right now. I just want a gal pal. Someone to be friends with and be intimate with. I love the female body and fantasize about it a lot. I have been with a woman before and it was incredible. 
(details here on where she lives and works and when she is available and that she can host) 

I would like to get to know you , find out if we have some things in common, and see some pics. Also I am older but a bit. I am 43. I hope that isn't a problem. TTYL
xxxx


Hi xxxx

You sound wonderful.  Let me catch my breath ..that was a great letter ..kinda told me exactly what I wished to hear.  

 I will let you know a couple of things ...the first is that I posted the picture of me on that site quite a while back.  I am 36 now and those things aren't hanging like that anymore :) (yours ..in the picture that shows your tattoo ..shows something mouth watering to me...I want to kiss your necklace, your tattoo, and feel your nipples respond to my lips)  I also (forgive me) chose a picture of me blonde and I am NOT blonde anymore ...I just didn't want to be recognized ..and I have gone back to something closer to my natural color ..and I will send that picture to you in this email. ( I color my hair frequently but several summers ago was blonde) I appreciate your comments on my nice eyes ( smile)  and it has always helped me have an easy time should I want to attract men ...but when I was with men it was about power and enjoying attention but I've been mostly lesbian in my heart for a few years now. I probably truly have been lesbian since I was 12 (first experience at 18) but not admitting it til my late 20's ..and still struggle with the truths.  Sexually and emotionally I am gay but in my R E A L life in this community I play wife and mother and church member.   VERY much still in the closet although I am especially this past year in "I don't give a fuck" mode in my marriage.

I only ever met one girl from this site ...I let her husband watch and even though I agreed to it, it seemed through the whole experience...orgasmic as it was ..that she was just putting a show on for him and wasn't truly totally focused on me. ...it got a little better after I pushed for us to satisfy his need. took him in my mouth and encouraged him to come quickly so as to get that out of the way (ahem)  ...long story short that was a one time afternoon thing and I have only been off and on on this site because the most thing people want is threesomes and foursomes there ...no biggy ..Im not totally against threesomes and there was a time I wanted that with my husband ...whom I am not ready to leave yet ..but do not love anymore and have not for years...and he is no part of this in fact its behind his back and all my affairs have been.

I don't remember all what it says on my profile on that site but I do know that I had better luck being with women in 2012 ...actually hooked up with two (name of the college) girls (not at the same time but they are roomates) which was an interesting couple of experiences and a little drama. (blog readers I am working on writing this story for you)   I also met a girl who came down to meet me from Richmond and that was flattering considering I could only spend an hour and a half with her ...long drive but I will tell you I tried to make it totally worth her while with my lips, mouth, tongue, fingers and passion.  The threesome from this site happened last year too.   But seriously ...maybe I shouldn't be telling you about all this cause I will scare you away ?      

If it sounds like I am lesbian sex obsessed you are right ...believe me you probably have no earthly idea yet how MUCH.  But I think I make a fun companion too...at least I try to be but  I truly don't have any girl "friends" other than work and church acquaintances ...nobody I hang out with or confide in...nobody that knows the real me.   I warn you that there is something wrong with me in that I don't totally understand why but I don't keep female friends long ...probably because I have so much to hide and my life is so complicated.  My longtime best friend is not anymore because I of course had the audacity to want to make love with her ..and she told me she's "not that way" and now we don't speak.   I don't get much free time and I am on the poor side so that limits things on the friendship level alot.

Sexually I should state upfront that while I am open to most anything that doesn't hurt, my main desire is your desire.  I am a giver and always have been.   I get off on getting my partner off and so whatever that may be is where I want to go.   I hope it means you want to accept my desire to give oral for long enough periods of time it might seem I can't get enough ...it's truly what gives me pleasure is to feel someones body respond to what I am doing ...using all of everything available ..tempos, textures, pressure, tenderness, power flip flops, intensity ebbs and flows, every sense enhanced, and especially...tuning into what my lover has told me what was good by her reaction, and anticipating what she wants next and next after that.   I collect orgasms like precious gems and afterglow caresses like diamonds. Nothing would zing me more than for you to say I was your favorite.   Oh yes, there is more ...I love to be liked, loved, and loved upon....perhaps always my disease is the desire to do anything for affection both in bed and honestly in my "real" life as well...but know that if there is chemistry I will do anything to make our short time stolen away wonderful and unforgettable when we are in the bubble --when it's just the two of us and the whole world goes away except our pleasure

So back to where we started ...YOU said what I wanted to hear and I could not be more attracted to your pictures.     Here are a couple of me ...the one in pink is most recent.  (and I will send the blonde one from that site that is cropped LOL)   I guess I have made clear that I want you to want me ....and while I will try to keep things drama free ...i probably should confess that you already make my heart pound with every word I wrote here and every erotic thought of the taste of your lips and the desire we could share.

Lustfully yours

Brenda

Saturday

A Perfect Ending - Lesbian Love Story - TINGLES

Someone turned me on to this movie, which you can download or buy cheap by clicking on the image ...and I just need to say that Barbara Niven as Rebecca and Paris who is played by Jessica Clark have got more on screen lesbian chemistry than should be allowed by law.   Look at the trailer alone and you will agree that it's a wonderful way to spend a lazy day or evening with a short, wonderfully acted , amazingly poignant, and VERY EROTIC lesbian love story that will both chill you with the brutal reality of the lives portrayed, and the wonderfully warm sexual fulfillment portrayed.  What an incredible experience.   If you rent it, email me and tell me what you thought. (we could have a great discussion) akiss2desire@gmail.com

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